Tuesday, February 24, 2009


A lull before the storm... back to work

Monday, February 16, 2009

D-day is arriving!

Finally, the D-day is fast arriving. I kicked it off today. I am trying to choose my destiny. TNot the d-day you thought, the DOOMSDAY in relationships in my LIFE is fast arriving. No looking back, no regrets. A huge emotional and may be physical battle ahead!

Truths might be deformed, Truths will be morphed, Truth might not be accepted, but ultimately, let TRUTH emerge and prevail..!! God give me the strength to face hostility, to face the MORPHED TRUTHS, to face the inhumane behavior, to face the mindless humans, to face one of those "best-to-forget" moments of my life!

I might have been wrong last time and I might not be right this time, but the big difference is I am following my HEART. I heard it and I am following it now. I know that I need to face a huge consequences. I know LIFE is not going to be the same after this. I guess I am PREPARED, may be I am wrong, but well when you follow your heart you need to face the trouble, you need to be afloat, you need to be positive, you need to be stubborn... you need to be calm!

Let pain be there, let suffering be there, lest how can one become better. May be a one time suffering is better than a pain in doses. I might be broken , I might be out, I might be down, I might go insane, but I think I am taking the right path at this crossroads. God, may be I am ignorant, I might not be rude with people, I might not remember things, I might not be argumentative, but be with me and take me through this journey....

Friday, February 6, 2009

Just weird

Sometimes, I can't help but feel that life is unfair. Sometimes I feel it's fair. But why is that this weird feeling creeps in me, chokes me and few moments later, one phone call, one hi, one thought, I will forget about it. But the wounds it leaves are deep.

Confusion is such a thing that it lands in at unwanted time. To follow one's heart or to follow a "positive" way although it looks rubbish is my dilemma! Am I scared of a bleak future or Am I running away from the problem? Am I doing right? Pounded by questions and a zillion thoughts in mind and a painful heart, I wait to hug my destiny, well on the other hand do I have options?

I am too selfless!!- yes, on most occasions I were, but at the wrong one's. I am pessimist, when I think about the one's I am scared of. I am positive, when I saw the worst! But the trouble keeps brewing and the thoughts never cease.

I think it's time to listen to my heart. Let the world cry I were wrong, let people think I am insane, let them gossip, let the hell break loose, because after the worst comes the good time and the only companion in this lonely journey would be the almighty who must be busy preparing my To-Do list!