When it rains, it pours!!

After the lull, the storm brewed and brewed and finally it started pouring as anticipated and it slowed down and appeared to be clearing the coast. Exactly when you think it's all over, it suddenly seems to be taking a different turn. I am sure these moments of my life can clearly go to the TOP OF the CHARTS of TESTING TIMES list.

Insults, appreciations, bad-words, impatience, sleepless moments, furious mumblings, confusion, worst-is-here-moments, it's-all-over-thoughts, stupidity, insane, foolishness, love, hatred, ignorance, tears, few laughs, celebrations, meetings, discussions, debates, thinking and thinking and flooded by thoughts, moments of hope, moments of despair...Those are "few" words to describe what I have gone through in the past week.

Overall things went smoother than the worst they can get. Of course they did not go as smooth as they can either. But a feeling of clarity in thoughts emerged and it enabled few bold decisions. Physical and mental strengths have been tested and targeted. A well-wishers advice to pray god did worked.

It's a see-saw journey. A moment of hope followed by disappointment. The moment you realized that you guessed the next move, the one next to that goes beyond your wildest imagination. Your best prayer comes true followed by your worst fear. All these proves how ignorant one can be when one says "I CAN TAKE CARE OF THINGS or I KNOW EVERYTHING".

Thanks for praying and being with me, things are still under control (there I go again) or rather appears to be not very bad!( how much we wish we can control someone's -- love hatred and thoughts! )...

I am in the middle of an dark ocean...
witnessing a looming stormy night...
rocked by tides of thoughts...
clinging to a plank of hope...
driven by a divine light...
heading for unknown...

Thank you god.. thanks for being there.. if not for you, there is no hope!